When something so traumatic happens in your life and daily routines, like a devastating breakup or divorce you never get over it. It is haunting and always in the back of your mind in someways. It changes you in ways that you can't imagine. The child in you truly dies, the innocent happiness that was always there is gone. It's like the monster in your closet has come out to verify that he does exist.
Sara Evans sings a song "A little bit stronger" and I loved it the minute I heard it. It takes you to that place of hurt and healing during a breakup. She sings of how it is so hard at first to get out bed but eventually the hurt is lessened by time and your thoughts start to turn towards the future. She mentions in one of the last lines of the song, "How's it feel without me baby." You know at this point she is starting to turn around, a little bit of anger is showing up and she is telling herself that it wasn't all her fault. When she sings the lines of the chorus.
" And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger"
This is when you know you are getting stronger. It isn't when you buy the new outfit, lose a bunch of weight and start brushing your teeth again. It is when you can say I am done hoping(he is coming back), I'm done hurting and worrying about what that person is going to do or say next, It is really when you can look at yourself on the inside and say, "Yes, I am getting stronger."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22zB6Soc2Gk
